The Fate of Forgiveness

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The Fate of Forgiveness

“When you choose to forgive those who have hurt you, you take away their power” ~Unknown

We all are quite familiar with the conceptual knowledge that forgiveness is not for the person you are forgiving but for you right?  And although this is true, the process of actually formulating your mind and spirit to actively and consciously forgive someone is a tedium task.  It is not one that comes over night nor does it come with a brush of a cool breeze. Truth be told it can take long spans of time. In some cases you may even have to have certain levels of forgiveness or go back and forgive again.  When wounds are reopened and the remembrance of situations that you pushed so incredibly far back that you actually fooled yourself temporarily of forgetting, remind you of the actual occurrence, the salt in the wound aches all over again.  Therefore making it almost impossible to let go and truly release.  In this season of my life I am experiencing a level of adulthood that is requiring me to forgive and let go.  It is quite a challenge because the pain, infinite inquiries and judgement has been a great deal of what has always caused me pain in my life but I am taking steps to release it.  Not that I intentionally desire to hold onto the hurt but because sometimes you will never truly understand or perhaps it is not meant for you to understand but to take the experience for what it was and let it go and not haunt nor control your life and interfere with you truly living and seeing life through the eyes of one that have persisted to overcome one of the greatest adversities.

Love & Blessings to you, you, you and you.

Monique “1MOPoeticSOUL” D.

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Humpty’s Life Jacket

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Peace & Grace my beautiful ones….

Ever felt like you were literally s fragile within that “you” were the eggshells.  Some situations are so incredibly heavy and full of absolute chaos, that you feel alone at times.  Even if you have a faithful few in your inner circle you feel all alone and fear of the ultimate crack.  Humpty Dumpty wasn’t the only one that fell, I’ll tell you.  We sometimes fall and have cracks, scrapes, cuts, dents, and holes at times.  However, we must take the intangible bonding agent to glue ourselves back together and find balance before leaning towards yet another fall.  In a truly transparent moment, I admit I am currently going through the fire and the turbulence and speed of the winds blowing in my directions got me a bit shook.  Thankfully a fellow sister reminded me that this storm is temporary in the time capsule of the Most High but forever in my timeline.  Continually, I pray and meditate, “will my time of peace come and freedom to truly live?”  So, I am still trying to see my way clearly to tread into some tranquility and into some newness.  Coincidentally, the same day I bid a dear sister farewell for the last time, although I am filled with grief that she is no longer here, I am reminded of her smile.  No matter what she had going on and in the midst of our many conversations, she would always give me a huge warm smile and embrace me and depart with the words- “I love you sister”, or “I love you girl”.  It is with sincere reminders like this that are the greatest medicine and motivation to push a little harder.  In the midst of it all when I sit in solitude and push my pen to paper in full meditation I am reminded that we must unleash all that we hold within and allow those trusting persons to be the sounding board and life jacket when you feel you are drowning.  Keep on floating my dears till you see the shore and breathe.

Love & Blessings to you, you, you and you.

Monique “1MOpoeticSOUL” D.